Random Thoughts

Never do today what you can put off until tomorrow. Sometimes I think that should just be the motto of my life, sadly enough. I'm currently avoiding picking out songs. So far I've been catching up on the blogs that I've gotten behind on during the Christmas vacation. I did get on the internet with an actual goal in mind, and I have paid my cell phone bill and ordered more herbs, but mostly I've just been poking around. Not answering all my facebook messages like I should. Or anything else useful. Oh, well.

At work we were discussing the newest Twilight movie. Usually referred to by me as "that stupid sparkly vampire thing." Although I found out today that it has werewolves, which makes it slightly more interesting. Anyway, I made a comment about "maybe she just hadn't seen him take his shirt off yet," right when I realized my manager was standing there. He was amused, I was embarrassed. I found the whole, "I would have expected it from some people, but you?" comment pretty funny. I don't think of myself as a quiet person. Maybe a quiet person with a big mouth. My coworkers laughed about it for hours. I asked the one sitting in front why she hadn't said anything. She said she didn't want to interrupt the conversation. Seriously, if I'm ever discussing half-naked men with my boss standing right there, interrupt me!

I was thinking about the year being almost over. 2008 really sucked: divorce, bankruptcy, car accident, etc. But, in a way it was good, because I got to clean out a lot of what was clouding my life. This year has been good. It's felt like I'm just rebuilding my life over again. I'm so grateful my sister and her husband have let me live with them while I'm trying to put Humpty Dumpty together again. I'm grateful for my whole family, actually. They're all sorts of awesome.

I know I've used this blog to whine a lot. It's nice to have a place where I don't have to be brave and strong about my headaches. Not that I always am everywhere else, but I try to be, because it's really annoying to whine all the time. And it's not that I don't appreciate the good things, you know? Because I do. I have a great life, and for every time someone says I don't know how you do it, I just think, I don't have a choice and really, there are worse things. Like my favorite fall back: at least I'm not being attacked by a mountain lion. (I read a story in the Reader's Digest one time that scarred me for life.)

Okay, that's all. Now I have to pick out songs.