My Newest Chiropractor

My sister's mother-in-law's friend has apparently been going to this chiropractor that has really helped her and so I was encouraged to try him out. I had an appointment on Thursday morning. He was very nice. He did the whole new patient history thing, and then did a simple little adjustment on the base of my neck that he said should start things working again. He had tested my resistance, and it was bad. After the adjustment he tested me again, and the difference was really obvious. I've noticed over the last couple of days the frequency of the IPH has really lessened. Especially since I've been super tired and pretty stressed out over some stuff at work. So, I'm anxious for my next appointment, which is super early on Monday morning.

Here's the strange thing, though. This chiropractor does muscle activation, which is something I hadn't heard of until one of my coworkers referred me to her brother's chiropractor who does it. So, how strange is that? Anyway, that's what he's supposed to do on Monday, is test me for what muscles need reactivated. And test me for allergies. We'll see.

At work a few days ago, a posterboard fell on my head. It was a foam board, so it really just startled me, but ever since, when I forget something, or do something stupid, I just say, "You know, before that board hit me. . ." I'm contemplating trying to get worker's compensation for these headaches that I get now that I was hit with a board at work. Probably wouldn't fly - darn it.

Integrity

I came across this really interesting article today. It was written by Lauren Zander, entitled The Secret to Facing This Scary World. She talks about how there is one simple, single element that will enable people to overcome their fears and be effective in accomplishing their goals. According to her, "This comes from one place only - having personal integrity, which is complete trust in yourself to do what you say you will do. It seems counter-intuitive that a fear of things external could be solved by trust in yourself, but it really is true." She goes on to talk about how people often think integrity is based on their interactions with others, but it really is grounded in your relationship with yourself, and how consistent you are with doing the things you know you should. "People who learn to keep a promise to themselves - no matter what it is - have the power to change anything in their life, because they know they can trust themselves to do it." She has some good advice on how to develop personal integrity, and then closes with something that I found profound, "If you don't ever experience fear, you need to ask if you are really going after things that matter to you."

I'm terrible about giving myself excuses about why I haven't done the things I know I need to do. Usually I don't even bother with creative excuses, just that I was tired, or not in the mood, or not feeling well. I've never really thought of it as lying to myself, but, like Lauren said, "Your soul always knows the truth." And my soul knows that if I really wanted or needed to do it, I would have. I am capable of doing a lot more than I actually do. Maybe it's time to capitalize on that.

Happy New Year!

Or, for those of you who remember ShowBoat: Haaaaapy New Year! I'm going to remember 2009 with fondness. I crossed 3 things off of my 43 Things List, moved to Utah from Illinois, got a new job, moved departments twice, paid off $7234 of debt (leaving me with $4700 to pay this year), wrote more than I have in years, tried lots more doctors, tried online dating, and in general rediscovered that I actually like myself. Good times.

So, for 2010, here's the plan: I'm going to blackbelt my finances so that I can completely pay off the rest of my debt and get some money in savings. I'm assuming that by June or sooner I'll feel comfortable moving to an apartment. By my birthday in June I should be in my own place and have my Owed novel printed. I'm thinking if that gets done I'll celebrate with a spa day and some nice fish and chocolate from some place online that charges outrageous prices but looks really good. That, of course, would mean all my debt was gone. I'd like to get all my stuff under control, which I'll have to do most of after I move, since right now most of what I own (which somehow I've been living without just fine) is storing in the shed. But, I still have my filing and clothing to go through now. I'll continue working on the headaches, there's still a lot of lifestyle changes I need to make. Getting more consistent sleep, exercising, and meal plans. I want to cook more, and play basketball once the weather's warmer, and wake up in time to do something useful.

My toast for 2010: May I learn to live with complete personal integrity.